So, true to form, two days have lapsed since I created this blog, and vowed to update it once daily with a new image. Nice. The hurdle in this instance: my scanner is trapped inside a taped-up packing box. Make no mistake, the box isn't in an inaccessible corner in storage. No, it's actually within arms reach as I type. What's preventing me then? You know, I don't know. Fear?
I have to learn about blogging. I'm no good yet.
I want to talk about everything that's led up to where I am right now but get overwhelmed with the myriad possibilities of expression. I find it's easier to communicate stories and ideas quickly, in instant messages, because I don't have time to be picky with my diction - it's all gut, instinctual dialogue. Here though, I can fuss over my prose forever (like I am now - this post was started about 3 hours ago). For the sake of efficiency though, I'm efforting a mostly image-based thing. Maybe If I've got something to say, I'll say it. No promises though.
So yeah...everything that's led up to now...don't worry, I'm not about to recap my whole life. But, you know, the last few months or so. There's been a lot of transition. I ended 5 years of college in San Francisco, moved back to LA to live with my mom, and now doing the in limbo lifestyle, without a clue what's next. I'm having trouble revving up the creative motors. That's a scary thing for me. I feared that it wasn't just academic pressures preventing me from being creative, but simply my fear of being creative. With the studious burden off my back, I'm more terrified than ever to create. There is nothing in my way now. I'm looking into the void. Maybe I've had something in my way for so long that I've developed a symbiotic relationship with those obstacles. Maybe I need them. I feared a post-college creative block and I'm fucking in it! Maybe that's why it's happening though (coughthesecretcough).
Ok, so I am starting with one goal: make at least one new drawing a day. I think that'll at least help with the momentum. It could be an ellaborate drawing, a half-assed doodle I did while on the phone, or part of a work-in-progress. Either way, it'll be something new daily (ideally). It's like...If the muse isn't present, I can sharpen my skills so that when she appears, I'll be prepared. RIght?
